I got hate notes today. Two of them, from people I thought were my friends. They called me a liar and a thief and said I was annoying and irritating. If I didn’t change my ways then they refused to be my friend & then I realized, I just lost half of my friends. I was never thought in a good way to them and honestly, I was going to push myself in front of a bus. I’m not just saying it but I was walking to a Metro station and just waiting for something to hit me so hard that you didn’t recognize my body anymore. I just thought, what would they think, if they knew their words almost pushed someone to take their life? What would they do? Pretend to have some sob story? I wanted to die today. I would rather be dead than be alone.